What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Right?

I was having a tough morning. I was having a pity party for myself actually. I had this very real, very vivid dream of us last night and I couldn’t fall back to sleep once I awoke. I have decided to stop feeling sorry for myself. To stop worrying whether you love me or not. I know you do. I know that you loving me is not something I have to worry about. You do. Are you doing it the best way possible right now? Yea, not so much but hey shit happens in life. I have to remember that. There are fucked up things that happen that are out of our control and they don’t make you love me any less.

With all that being said I was still having a shitty morning. I still missed you. And then, I see that there are more comments than I knew and started reading through them. It always tickles me to see that there are people out there who take time out of their day to write me words of encouragement and caring. Thank you for that. Thank you so much to all of you Lovies out there who read my ramblings and heartache and still send your love. It means so much to me. Thank you also to those of you who don’t comment but simply take the time to read my ramblings, it helps just to know someone, somewhere, cares. While reading I come across a message that made me smile and tear up. I don’t really have the words to express how much this touched me. I am posting a copy of the comment below because I think that everyone who is hurting could find some peace after reading it.

Thank you so much my friend. Thank you for reminding me to believe in ME and not only US. Thank you for bringing a smile to my face. May the next 80ish days go by quickly and as painless as possible (:

Your soul is intact, my new friend. NO FORCE OR INDIVIDUAL can touch your inner being; it simply feels that way because of the level of your commitment to this person.
In time you’ll move on; someone new will stir your soul – and loins – and all this will be a painful – but strangely beautiful – memory. I say that because every experience , good or bad, serves to shape the person we’ll eventaully become.
And after all this, you’re going to become a stronger, wiser, more intelligent person who is prepared to love again – with everything you are.

Goodnight my Moon. I hope you are okay. I miss you. I love you.

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  1. Amelia

     /  January 25, 2012

    Don’t ever forget how strong you are. Reach down and pull that strength out. Just remember, it WILL get better no matter which way your story plays out. Just don’t lose yourself or your soul. I almost did and I still struggle today 4 years after my break up with my “Moon.” It was not the outcome I had hoped for, but it taught me a lot about myself. It taught me that I am can survive heart ache, that I am strong, and that I am worth it. And so too will you. Be kind to yourself.

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  2. Every day you wake up with a sense of purpose is a day that has been renewed. Good job on seeing that to make an “us”, you need two parts.

    Focus on you and your recovery, the rest will fall into place.

    Stay strong, beautiful one.

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  3. everyday i wake up i felt sry for myself cause i feel that i am alone the one that i love he isn’t beside me helping me to live in this life , i can’t take it anymore and i’m afraid for being alone to long i wanna to be loved again i can’t live without love your words is very good and right but how can i do it ? life is to short and very bad , i felt that he is the one for me really from my heart he is my everything , how can i do it alone??????

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