We’re making magic. And we are gonna survive the Zombie Apocalypse.

 

Today was amazing.You are amazing.US is more than amazing (:

Being able to spend the time together we have lately is saving me right now. Things are bad here. I feel awful that you have to deal with all my sadness right now, especially since it’s not your fault or because of you. I have basically begged and pleaded with you to leave me alone during all this, to run as fast as you can and hide from this but you refuse and I love you so much. I love that you don’t give in to my pushing. I love how you love me. I find the love of US lighting the dark when you are not here. I can feel the love of US settle over me when the anxiety, sadness, hurt start to set in.

Shutting down is my basic survival mode. It is what I always do. When things start to get too much I shut down. I push everyone and everything away and I ‘Fake it till I make it’. I don’t let anyone in to comfort, hold, or support me. I don’t really even know what that is like anymore. I have been battling this thing called life by my own for so long now that having a KickAss partner like YOU is unsettling at times. Then the excitement and love takes back over and the KICKASS-ness shines bright again.

Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for not letting me push you away. Thank you for holding on and loving me through all my ‘craziness’. Thank you for seeing through all of my ‘I would rather be alone’ bullshit and sticking around. Thanks for loving me, crazy and all.  

I am going to try to sleep. I hope you stayed asleep tonight Moon, you were beyond cute tonight my dear. Tonight was fantastic and fun. You are just what I needed. You are just what I need. Forever.

Goodnight my Moon. I love you.

 

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