I should battle this demon on my own… I think.

Until now that is…..

I am sorry. I think I need to do this on my own. I love you. I need to do this…

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  1. Aw, ML. This post makes me really sad. I am sorry you think you need to go this alone, but the reality is not a single one of us is ever truly alone and everyone needs support. If you need anything, just an ear or well……a screen, lol. Let me know.

  2. I had a friend, Peter, who wrote: “I must conquer my loneliness alone I must be happy with myself or I have nothing to offer you. Two halves have little choice but to join; and yes they do make a whole. But two wholes, when the coincide. That is beauty. That is love.”

    I think of him often. Especially when the insomnia blurs waking reality into emotional, sleep teasing, twilight reality. When the body finally starts giving in to being tired, and I am just distracted enough to start thinking of things I don’t want to but need to deal with.

    Things that if I would just deal with instead of shoving under huge rugs in my mind, would have long faded into something I can’t believe I ever avoided.

    I miss Peter. He would be good to blog with on this.

    Peter Alexander McWilliams (August 5, 1949 – June 14, 2000)


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