No jazzy title tonight… only tears my friends

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I’m so exhausted. I’m so tired of being sad. I’m so sick of missing you. I’m so confused about so many things. You were are my soul mate. You were supposed to be my forever. But just because our forever didn’t work doesn’t take away you being my soul mate.
And that is super shitty…
How do you make your soul forget about it’s mate, the reason for its being… it’s impossible.
I go through the day with a feeling of loss in the pit of me. There is not a second that goes by that isn’t a struggle to breathe. Nothing I try to tell myself helps. Nothing can take away the memories of US that linger.
And it sucks.
I’m exhausted. I’m tired of hurting.
I’m struggling to survive. I’m trying to breathe. I’m hoping to let go, like you did. I want to know how you do it, how did you forget about US so easily? Please, please let me in on your secret. Help me ease the ache my bones feel from the loss of you. Convince me that the huge, gaping, black hole that you left behind can be fixed.
Because the only fix I can think of is you. And it’s obvious that’s no longer an option…

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