Let’s try this again. . Posting a few days later.

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Dear Universe,

Twice in one day huh? I might be spoiling ya.

I can’t sleep.

I’m currently not ‘not sleeping’ somewhere other than my bed, staring off into a dark room, and I have my laptop available so the fingers they are a flying…

I don’t really have anything to say but that is how so many of my posts begin.

I put in a post earlier about how I usually only write about one part of my life here, Moon. I have spent so long making this a place for US that it feels so awkward to write about anything else here but I am hoping that with time it will become easier. Hopefully with time it wont feel like I’m being untrue to Moon.

Okay lets talk about that for a second.

When will I not feel like I am doing something behind Moons back or that I am being unfaithful to him? Will I ever? Is that a normal feeling?

Or am I truly batshitcrazy now?

It took months to have a conversation with someone and not feel like I was cheating on Moon. Seriously. How fucking funny is that btw… Months after he finally told me he didn’t love me anymore I’m still feeling like I’m being dishonest and unfaithful to someone that didn’t give a rats ass about being honest with me. Batshitcrazy again I think..

But anyways..

It is getting less and less. I’m able to have conversations with males and not feel bad after. I’m finally able to accept compliments from people and truly believe that they may be sincere.

I just don’t know when or if I will be able to write about them here. I’m hoping this slowly turns into MY place instead of just a place for US.

Okay well the bed is calling my name so I am going to try to pass out..

Wish me luck.

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