Dear Universe, Please show me something Amazing today… Make me feel alive.


Hey there.

I miss you. I want to lie in bed with you all day and just get lost in your love and snuggle into you, wrapped in your arms, forever. In your arms is the only place that I feel safe, it is the only time that I am able to fully breathe.

And that scares me. I need to be able to be okay on my own. I want to be okay on my own. I want to be able to fall asleep at night and not constantly be woken with nightmares.

I guess I am going to stop this now. It isn’t making me feel better for some reason. I am feeling a bit worse right now actually.

I am going to blast some music, my specialty, and get lost in cleaning, until I can get lost in US.

I love you.

I miss you.

I’m yours.




Dear Me, I found this and thought you could use a friendly reminder. F U!

I actually wish I could cry. I think if I did then I wouldn’t feel so anxious and I would be able to take a full breath. I feel like I am not able to fully take a breath in anymore, like I am surviving on the least amount of oxygen I can.

It sucks.

I’m sorry. I miss US…