Some say tomorrow the World may end… My love for US never will. Promise.

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I figure I should I write, the end of the world is coming you know and I would hate to not be able to, what with being dead and all.
I wish I had some great story to write, about how beautiful and wonderful our love story is. But we both know that would be full of shit.
I have distanced myself from you, emotionally mostly but in other ways as well.
I have to.
There is no other way to fight US. If I let myself slip at all and fall into the magic of you it’s almost impossible to shut it out.
I can literally feel you ignite US, from the depths of me I feel the tingle and slow burn of US begin and if I don’t immediately block it out… Well, I don’t really know what would happen because I have always fought it and I’m terrified to find out what would happen otherwise.
So I will continue to fight US. I can’t even write about it any longer because just recalling the feelings and putting them down makes my heart race and my breathing irregular, the butterflies start to flutter and well… Just a bunch of things start happening so as usual I can feel myself begin to shut down.
Had to distract myself and put the writing thing on hold. Things are getting pretty bad if I literally can’t even write about US without the tingle starting. I don’t know how much longer I can fight it. It’s becoming so hard. I’m sorry if my distance is hurting you.
I’m hurting too.
I’m sorry if you feel like I don’t like you anymore or I am moving on or any other silly thought you are having because I’m not. I don’t even know how I could. It seems like there is no way to forget about US, not that I truly want too, it’s like US has branded my soul and there is no way to ignore it.
It is so easy to get lost in you. It is so easy to fall into you and never want out. But I won’t allow that to happen. I can’t…
I want nothing more than to call you up and fall asleep to you. Just the sound of your breathing settles the violent waves that my sea of doubt toss about.
There are many things I miss about you, the soft gentle way you whisper to me, the way your love wraps around me no matter the distance, the way your presence awakens Her and makes get long for you.. It’s happening again. I need to stop myself. I’m sorry. For some reason I feel as though I could write forever but the emotions that are surfacing are scary. And I’m exhausted. Lonely. And you’re not here, yet somehow I feel you all around me…
ugh…. I’m ending this now. Before I say anything (else) I may regret.
I love you. I miss you. I’m sorry.
I’m yours…

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Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I love you, Tomorrow… Now I just have to believe in Tomorrow, fat chance.

I’m not holding my breath but I am crossing my fingers.

I’m sorry. I miss US.

You are my ONE unlike any other… And please help me unleash the WILD inside baby.

No matter what experiences you and your partner has been through, going through, or maybe even an ongoing conflict that keep you guys attitude pumping. There will always be a reason not to leave when u are deeply in love with that person. When your heart agrees with your brain and create a confirmed  understanding of what love really means. There are plenty reasons to leave, but there’s only one good reason to stay, and that’s the feelings of those who are soul mates. ~ written by LoveAdjust

 

Thank you for those beautifully written words Love (: Thanks for kicking my ass into gear and reminding that no matter what fear, anxiety, or CrAzInEsS I am feeling that there is always the ONE reason to stay…

Moon is my SOUL. And he is worth all of the above and so, so, much more.

I love you Moon. I am so sorry that I feel like I don’t deserve to be loved because I do. I know that I do. Everyone deserves to feel a love like US. I am so happy that I found you when I did. I don’t know if I would have appreciated a love like yours if I would have found you before now. So I guess for as broken as I am it has made me realize not to take your love for granted. That there are not many people who find a love like US. Thank you for showing me a love like you have. I promise that I will fight my hardest for US. I can’t promise that it will not be a crazy, wild, fucked up, ride but I promise to give it my all.

I love you.

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